Cursed be the day I was born!
June 9, 2010In a couple of minutes from now, it’s going to be the saddest day of the year for me - my birthday. And I curse the day I was born! The day my mother bore me should not be blessed! I was born to this world only to face suffering and misery. Sure, that’s what life is really about - living only to suffer from despair and anguish in this hate-filled world. But the sadness I feel is so great as to make me wish I was never born!
This overwhelming emptiness and anger was just what Jeremiah from the Bible felt after becoming a laughingstok and the butt of all jokes, as stated in Jeremiah 20:14-18
Cursed be the day on which I was born! The day when my mother bore me, let it not be blessed! Cursed be the man who brought the news to my father,”A son is born to you,” making him very glad. Let that man be like the cities that the LORD overthrew without pity; let him hear a cry in the morning and an alarm at noon, because he did not kill me in the womb; so my mother would have been my grave, and her womb forever great. Why did I come out from the womb to see toil and sorrow, and spend my days in shame?
I haven’t read the rest of the book, so I don’t know if Jeremiah became successful in suppressing his depression. I once believed that conquering depression is possible, but right now everything’s so dark… hazy at the least. All I can do is cry, be angry at myself and pour my heart out through this blog.
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Just passing by….
but then, for sure, once i’m all tied up with my career i’ll be looking for that free time i once hated so much lol
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If you haven’t, please take time to watch it!
Posted by Blogitiquette at June 10, 2010, 8:51 am